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Loss

5 Aug

This week I lost my job due to my own temper and some poor management on the other side, and then I lost two dear friends due to a tragic accident.

This on top of some previous tragedies that have befallen my community in the past month.

Somehow I’m holding it together. Well, not somehow. I got help. I turned to friends to lean on. I got a lot of great advice. I did some writing. I did some praying. I let go of expectations. I’m trusting in God.

I’m preaching on Sunday, on Moses and the Burning Bush. Going to talk about conversations with God, and God as the motivational speaker.

Things seem like gloom and doom right now, and honestly, I am depressed and anxious. I have done some crying. But there also seems to be some peace and serenity going on. In a way, I’m going back to what I know. I’m attending more meetings. Got a new sponsor. I’m volunteering more at Cathedral. And with more free time, I can watch more shows and movies, right?

I’m not giving up. I had a job interview today and have another one on Tuesday. I’ve applied to a bunch more jobs. When one door closes another opens. God gave me gifts to use to help others, and that’s what I’m going to do.

I don’t know what to write about.

2 Jul

I’m trying to get in the practice of writing every week. But I really don’t know what to talk about today so I’m going to just throw out some random things going on in my head.

I’m on vacation… again. I just had a vacation a few week’s ago but my supervisor thinks I’m burnt out and suggested I take more time off. Not really going to do anything during my vacation but rest.

My neighbor keeps stealing my dinner. I am going broke. I’m spending more money than I make and my savings are dwindling. So I cut out my cable and I also ordered free meal delivery. But my neighbor keeps stealing my deliveries. Not really sure what I’m going to do about that.

Superman and Lois isn’t in the Arrowverse, despite Crisis on Infinite Earths setting up Lois and Clark as being part of the Arrowverse. I like multiverse stories but I also like shared universes and I really don’t see why they couldn’t have put Superman and Lois in the Arrowverse.

Not seeing any movies this week but looking forward to Thor next week.

Been watching Stranger Things, Obi-Wan, the Boys, Ms. Marvel and Umbrella Academy. All good stuff.

My cat is too needy. She won’t give me space. It’s very annoying. It’s like “I’m home all week. Pace the cuddling.”

You know, sometimes I miss being in a relationship, but honestly, I really like being alone. I miss sex. And I miss having someone to talk to. But I really like doing my own thing on my own schedule without compromise. Plus, I’m a slob and nobody would tolerate that.

I used to enjoy writing, but now it feels like a chore. I’ve gotten back into reading comics. I’m enjoying that, though since I haven’t really followed comics in years, I’m kind of lost in the continuity, especially with all the reboots and such. I’m currently reading World’s Finest, Amazing Spider-Man, Savage Avengers, and Vampire Slayer.

I guess that’s it. If you read all that, you must be pretty bored.

Streaming beats Network TV

25 Jun

Shows on network TV are mostly pretty lame right now compared to the great quality of entertainment found on streaming. Stranger Things, Obi-Wan, The Boys, Umbrella Academy. All great this season. I just wished they weren’t on different streaming services. I find myself having to own all the streaming services, which is costing me a bundle. I still have cable, but the only things I really watch on cable are America’s Got Talent and Office reruns on Comedy Central.

I used to love the Arrowverse, but I have found it’s not so great post-Crisis. And yet, I find myself unwilling to cancel my cable subscription. I’m still holding on.

Ed Wood

18 Jun

Yeah, Ed Wood was a terrible filmmaker. But I really feel like we would have gotten along. He collected a nice assortment of weirdos to make his films, and I really feel like I would have fit right in.

I just rewatched the Tim Burton film. All of the cast members do a really great job portraying the characters from Ed’s entourage. Just imagine getting to pal around with the legendary Bela Lugosi or getting to hang out with Vampira.

Ed’s career may be a lot of bad movies, but he spent his life doing what he loved. I really admire him.

Reluctant Vacation

6 Jun

Robert E. Wronski, Jr.

It turns out I’m a workaholic. After years of being on disability, I’ve been back to work for the past few years. I now have a job that comes with paid time off.

My supervisor pushed me to take vacation time. She felt I was getting burnt out, and the fiscal year was ending, and if I didn’t just my PTO, I’d lose it.

So I took time off, even though every time I take time off a crisis happens at work.

So I spent my vacation trying to be sociable and I watched a lot of streaming shows and movies. Also did a bit of reading. And I slept in every day.

It was nice. It was relaxing.

I miss work. Tomorrow I go back and I’m excited. I’m a person who needs routine, and needs to be busy. It’ll be good to deal with the latest crisis and…

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Reluctant Vacation

6 Jun

It turns out I’m a workaholic. After years of being on disability, I’ve been back to work for the past few years. I now have a job that comes with paid time off.

My supervisor pushed me to take vacation time. She felt I was getting burnt out, and the fiscal year was ending, and if I didn’t just my PTO, I’d lose it.

So I took time off, even though every time I take time off a crisis happens at work.

So I spent my vacation trying to be sociable and I watched a lot of streaming shows and movies. Also did a bit of reading. And I slept in every day.

It was nice. It was relaxing.

I miss work. Tomorrow I go back and I’m excited. I’m a person who needs routine, and needs to be busy. It’ll be good to deal with the latest crisis and catch up on the 100 emails I got while I was off.

I’ve got another vacation coming in July, and a couple of days off in June. Hopefully I get through it.

I am not a Star Wars fan….

5 Feb

If you meet a fan of Star Wars, they will tell you they hated Return of the Jedi.

They hated the prequels.

They hated the new movies.

I love everything Star Wars. Therefore, I am not a Star Wars fan.

Requels

16 Jan

For the past several years, the media keeps talking about reboots that are not by my definition a reboot. If it takes place in the same reality as the original, it’s a sequel. A reboot, to me, is the creation of a new universe. A reboot is synonymous with a remake in many ways, but a remake is about a particular story, whereas a reboot is applied to a series or franchise.

Adding to the annoyance is when a sequel is made that really wants you to think it’s a reboot by re-titling it with the original title, for example, The Grudge, Halloween or Scream.

The new Scream movie at least acknowledges it, as it does, and gives this trend a name… requels. A sequel that pretends to be a reboot.

Aside from the annoyance with the media mixing terms, I appreciate the trend. It’s an attempt to satisfy both old and new audiences. Don’t erase continuity, but still bring in a new cast of young characters that have the longevity to keep the universe moving forward.

So let’s stop calling sequels reboots, and let’s embrace the requel. But still…. Scream (2022) will always be Scream 5 to me.

Grumpy AF

1 Aug

I’m on vacation, and it’s not the vacation I wanted, but when my plans fell through, I decided to make the best of it, and it’s been a pretty decent vacation. But last night I found myself getting grumpy over something, and the grump isn’t going away.

In fact, it’s getting worse. Every little thing is bothering me. I don’t want to be grumpy. But I can’t turn it off.

Anyways, I haven’t written anything in a while. I’ve been so damn tired all the time ever since I went back to work. But I figured I’m on vacation. I should try writing something. So I’m writing the random thoughts on my mind.

Like why is the girl I had a crush on in high school always in my dreams? I haven’t even talked to her in years. My does my shoulder hurt all the time? I didn’t do anything to injure it. It just started hurting one day and hasn’t stopped.

I have a new cat whose super sweet and super annoying. I really love my new job, but I’m still adjusting to not having as much free time. And I’m kind of feeling guilty about taking a vacation when my clients have stuff going on and need my help. But I’m supposed to take vacations and clients always have stuff going on and always need help.

Life is good, really good. But I’m always depressed. I just want to sleep. No, that’s not a metaphor for suicide. I literally want to sleep all the time. I love sleep. I love dreaming. Even though half the times in my dreams I’m just filing paperwork for some reason. I think I do more paperwork in my sleep than I do at my actual job.

Random, random thoughts.

I think I’ll go to bed soon.

Come True: A Review

19 Mar

There may be spoilers. If so they will be minor, but read at your own risk.

What the fuck did I just watch?

Come True is the story of a teenager who can’t sleep in her own bedroom for some reason that’s never explained and eventually isn’t even relevant to the story, though it’s the catalyst to this whole thing so it seems like it would be important. She can sleep anywhere else, but not her own bedroom.

So she goes to a sleep study, where there’s a creepy vibe, and with good measure, because the scientists are creepy and unethical, and should all be fired, and banned from the university. (Though that worked out for the Ghostbusters).

So the movie is from the point of view of the girl… until suddenly it’s from the point of view of the scientists. Then suddenly it turns out, plot twist, there’s this boogeyman haunting the dreams of everyone in the sleep study, and one of the scientists too. So that’s what the movie is about. Being haunted by this boogeyman. You’d think… until they just kind of abandon that idea…

And here’s the big spoiler so stop reading because I’m going to reveal the ending. She’s been in a coma for 20 years, even though she’s 18 in the dream, and even though there are entire scenes in the movie that allegedly were part of her coma dreams… that she wasn’t in. How was she dreaming what was going on in scenes she wasn’t present in.

And she also has fangs at the end for some reason.

None of it made sense. The movie was building up as this mystery, and then there was no pay off. It was, ha ha, you never guessed this twist ending, especially since none of the past hour and a half had anything to do with it…

I’m angry that this movie exists. It wanted to be clever. It was not.